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“Our surrender must be primal, gut level and from abject need and only there will we find the place of the fullness of God.” — Martha Kilpatrick (CDotM, "The Secret to Fullness")

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Letters Never Sent
Letters Never Sent
Author: Martha Kilpatrick

A long time ago I began to write Letters Never Sent. They were just for me, but some read them and said they should be read by others, that they speak for all, not just for me.  So I offer these letters, written for profound events and little encounters. Written to real individuals. Some are lost to me. A few are dead . . . but all are remembered - and I remember my own responses - because I recorded them.

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The Friend

Author: Martha Kilpatrick  1 October 2002

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We have been together how long? Through how much? Children, projects, trouble, cooking, ministry . . . misery. Your brand of love . . . you don't just share my hurts. You take my spear and stick it in your own heart. You don't just hug me, you rock me. You don't just love my children, you take them as your own. You don't just pray for them, you serve them. You don't just pray for me, you hear His voice to your heart when I can't. You're there when everybody else has been gone for hours. You clean up the after mess. You think you're lazy. The Proverbial woman should be so industrious. You think you're disorganized. Then how come you get there on time, have your cake baked and mine as well? We've ... read remainder of article

We have been together how long? Through how much?
Children, projects, trouble, cooking, ministry . . . misery.

Your brand of love . . . you don't just share my hurts.
You take my spear and stick it in your own heart.
You don't just hug me, you rock me.
You don't just love my children,
you take them as your own.
You don't just pray for them, you serve them.

You don't just pray for me, you hear His voice to
your heart when I can't. You're there when
everybody else has been gone for hours.
You clean up the after mess.

You think you're lazy.
The Proverbial woman should be so industrious.
You think you're disorganized. Then how come you get
there on time, have your cake baked and mine as well?

We've had our tussles. That's why you have my heart.
You're not afraid to solve it 'til it's solved.
And you always come out of the ring loving.

You think you are small. But your soul is large, so large.
Your heart takes in all God sends.

You think you aren't so smart. But it's you who can strip
away the fat and find the meat, when others can't.
Or don't.

Who is it I seek out and ask for straight talk?
Who is it I ask to share my load?
To whom do I give my scratch for doctoring?
Dearest friend, you.

I left you waiting in the cold. You never mentioned it.
I made you miss the meeting. You didn't notice.
I acted selfishly. You pretended I was good.
I agonize over my failures. You point to my successes.
But when it needs to be addressed for my eternal growth,
you will take my hand and face me.

You let me cry, but don't label me crybaby.
You believe in my best self even when she is hiding
so well that I no longer believe she exists.

You're cool, not afraid I will fall.
So I don't. My confidence often rides on yours.

When it comes time to get His great reward,
His "well done,"
you are going to be pleasantly surprised,
but I won't.

 

Copyright © 1985 Martha Kilpatrick 

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1 April 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
God has handed you a raw deal. I don't like it! It's not fair. You, the best, the finest. Oh, your suffering! On every...continue reading
2
The Liberal
1 May 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
Dear Pastor, You, so current and liberal. "The Bible mostly myth." I could not bear your leading astray those tottering and...continue reading
3
Garden Gates
1 June 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
Beloved friend, don't analyze me. I defy analysis. So do you. To do so violates my soul by confining me to your...continue reading
4
The Brother
1 July 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
I lectured you. (I called it sharing.) You needed to do things by the standard I had chosen, arriving when you promised,...continue reading
5
The Star
1 August 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
You want me for your counselor. Beg me to look deep and give you what my inner eyes see. We walk...continue reading
6
The Tyrant
1 September 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
This person was my first introduction to "religious evil," the kind that didn't recognize the Beloved Son of the God they...continue reading
7
The Boy
1 October 2000  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
Brave you rose to speak. Myriad faces didn't stop you nor an awesome pulpit.   Boys sometimes stand and shaking, preach. But only men cry in public for their...continue reading
8
The Living Dead
1 January 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
(I will call this person TAMI) I have had such strange thoughts. I have been thinking about the eulogy that could be spoken...continue reading
9
The Comic
1 February 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
You taught me to laugh. But for you I'd be a stodgy stick-in-the-mud. No mundane days for you....continue reading
10
The Prince
1 March 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
You are a prince. Do not walk as common men. The world is yours as much as you are wholly His.     ...continue reading
11
Radiant Nurse
1 October 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
You were lovely in your nurse-white, coming in my empty room. Really empty, having lost my first: years-waited-for, prayed-for baby. Isolated from...continue reading
12
The Melancholy
1 November 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
 You are Winter, know only one season. Gray silhouettes. Hopeless struggle. Life is not sleeping, soon to stretch and wake. For you life...continue reading
13
The Christian Teacher
2 November 2001  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
I'm his mother. What makes you think you know better for him than I do? I who pray and fast...continue reading
14
The Mother
1 January 2002  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
Dear Baba (my infant name for you), You've lived in heaven for many years now . . . . As you lay...continue reading
15
The Gossip
1 February 2002  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
You served up all the juicy meat. I didn't know how to stop you and I hated myself for wanting to...continue reading
16
The Image Consultant
1 March 2002  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
I held back, reserved opinion. I wasn't going to be fooled. But I would hear you out, let you give...continue reading
17
The Biting Dog
1 May 2002  Author: Martha Kilpatrick
I never got to know you before you killed us. I came in like a puppy, dancing - open. Thinking you wonderful, glad...continue reading